Love's it...

I have TWO stories for this entry... oh yes get excited.

~The Date(?)~
So this weekend my friend Adam came into town and asked me to go out Olives with him and some of his highschool friends. I know Adam through loooooong time friend Erica Silvester Mabe... Adam is her brother-in-law. Ive hungout with Adam a handful of times at weddings, a DMB concert, and a few other times. So i know him but i dont really knoooooow him. But I decided to go anyways. I had nothing to lose, I am single after all, and if it blows then he lives an hour from atlanta! Hah!
So i get all dolled up and arrive to Olives a fashionable 20mins late... *deep breath* (dates scare me) ... and meet Adam. As predicted there are at least 15 people there... boys and girls. Talk about throughing yourself into the lions den... i know how girls can be about "their boys" but i was ready none the less... or so i thought! I was ready until Adam explained the situation to me... I was first introduced to a couple people and then after re-arranging some chairs Adam and I sat down. So i look around and realize im in a sea of couples (fuck! and i tell myself not to freakout *deep breaths*) and Im cool... im cool until... until Adam points to a girl, a girl with big boobs and a size 00 tight dress, and whispers thats my ex girlfriend, shes been acting weird tonight. Oh.Shit. It dawns on me that I am in a see of couples plus Adam's ex girlfriend and that all those couples are bff with the ex, which they made known... shit.shit.shit. That makes me that girl, that girl that everyone hates because I'm the stand in random skank Adam has brought to through in an exs face. So... ex proceeds to get completely smashed... and rightfully so. She shot patron like a damn champ. I would do the same.
So now its me, Adam, ex's bff coupled friends, and a drunk off tequila ex girlfriend. Im not sure if awkward even covers it. But wait it gets worse.
So ex proceeds to sit next to me (of course) and now im in an ex sandwhich with all eyes on me. So Adam makes some face at ex. And she asks what that looks was for, he goes nothin dont worry about it, and she slurs back no tell me, and hes like i dont know it was nothing (this goes on another two times) and then she goes i dont know isnt a good answer, and Adam responds with "marissa, its just never good enough" shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit. Talk about the wrong damn thing to say... doesnt he know its illegal to play the "its not good enough card" on an ex infront of people! So she does the shuttering deep breath girls do when their hearts break, cries, and runs off to the other table. So i play the "my friend just broke up with her boyfriend and is really upset, i need to be with her" card... done, and exit. Then i went to the house and watched letterman with jesse and rook (freakin figures)

This is why I dont date... people with my luck don't date... we text and makeout.




~What in the Walmart!?!~
So im pretty sure i was racially profiled at Walmart last night. For serious.
So I go to walmart about 11ish at night and grab some stuff.... hangers, dish soap, a toothbrush, gum, a new memory foam pillow, and a basket. I check out with the lady at the counter and pay with $100 bill (yeah, i roll with benjamins!) So the lady has to get at least 3 people to look at the bill before she busts out the real bill pen thing... So im kinda of frustrated it took three walmart employees and too long to purchase 6 things. But ugh, whatever I through my change and receipt into my mary poppins purse and head for the door. So I've got the basket with all the hangers and stuff in my left hand and the pillow that has been bagged on my right as I head for the door alongside 4 black people and a hispanic couple who have tons of shit... walkin, walkin, and then the +60 yr old black, female, walmart "greeter" (which i have renamed the walmart "pain in my damn ass" Wpimda for short") stops me and is like ma'am i need to check your things. Ugh, of course you do... so I show her my stuff anf she goes ma'am i need to see the receipt. Of course you do, you wicked hag. So i put all my stuff down on the ground and proceed to dig around in my purse so the freakin receipt. So I finally find it, pull it out and show it to her. Wpimda must be a blind ass bitch because even with her 3in thick glasses lens she holds the paper up to her nose and proceeds to read through the list... then she takes the basket and starts digging around through all 5 things in it. I mean shes practically got her entire head in the basket looking for something i might have pilfered somewhere in the 20 foot distance from checkout to exit door. I mean shes going at it like ive thrown shit in hidden pockets somewhere in the basket. So im standing there with a half ass smile on my face while screaming "fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck you woman" in my head. So finally shes like ok, i guess you can go. So i take the reciept and throw it back into my purse and begin to pick up my things again. Take two steps along side another black couple with more shit than me and the woman stops me again "and goes ma'am wait, I didnt see that pillow on the receipt" I scream more obscenities in my head at her, drop my shit, and start digging for the receipt AGAIN. I more or less throw the receipt at her and in a stern manner go "its.the.first.one.on.the.list....ma'am" She peers down at the receipt then picks up the pillow, takes it out of the bag that the check out woman put it in WHEN I BOUGHT IT... and checks the fucking bar code on pillow box to match the receipt. At this point, i blurt out "seriously, I paid for my shit...ma'am" (a good southern girl always throughs in the ma'am) She stares blankley at the receipt and pillow box for another minute, puts the receipt in the bag with the pillow... and goes "ok, have a good night" AHHHHHHHHHHH!? Honestly, how many little white girls steal pillows from walmart at 11pm?!

I seriously almost decked a senior citizened walmart employee last night. Next time im going to fuck with her and hand her a Kroger receipt... hah!




On a happier note... this is my new favorite song, "when im with you" by Matt Ryczek... i like it, its real


your smile brightens my day
you chase those clouds away
and the sun
it shines through
when i see you

love it when our eyes meet across the room
so surreal and everything feels so good
just a look just a glance
all i need is a second chance

and your grin has no end
i'm sorry we're currently just friends
but maybe
will be one more together
until then this love song's for a friend

and your smile brightens my day
you chase those clouds away
and the sun shines through
when i see you

go ahead and act like you don't know who i am
that way you won't have to show me your hand
but a got lady is a card played baby
what'd you say we make the bet you and me yeah
if i win i get you
if you lose you get me
either way we both walk away
very pleased
either way we both walk away
very pleased

tick toc on the clock
is wasting away
i'm not going anywhere
i'll stay
cuz i got this feeling
deep inside that
you and i
are going to get by

your smile brightens my day
you chase those clouds away
and the sun
it shines through
and your smile brightens my day
and you chase those clouds away
and the sun it shines through
when i see you

1. Hi, my name is... Nessa's #1 lover... peace you out chris!

2. Never in my life have I been... half thai... but my lover is

3. The one person who can drive me nuts is... this lady at work named leslie... bitch is on strike 2. Next time she pisses me off im going to come at her like a spider monkey!

4. High school... in norcross

5. When I'm nervous... i break out in hives on my neck... which causes people to laugh at me and think i have hickies... which in turn makes me more nervous. Viscious cycle.

6. The last time I cried was... earlier this week, im not sure why... its probably bc im a girl!

7. If I were to get married right now my best man/maid of honor would be...kate baska... duh, its a given.

8. My hair is... up in a ponytail bc i woke up late as shit today!

9. When I was 5... i was kissing boys on the playground... sarah baska = kindergarten pimp-ette

10. Last Christmas... I was in Wilmington NC

11. I should be... making new patient packets... but im not!

12. When I look down I see... my feet... duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh.

13. The happiest recent event was... about an hour ago when i got my paycheck, my referral check, and a bonus check from my boss... so glad i didnt call into work today!!!!

14. If I were a character on 'Friends' I'd be... Joey... how YOU doin!?

15. By this time next year... i better not be sitting at this effing desk!

16. My current gripe is... i did not get enough sleep last night... i have the need for zzzzzzzzzz's

17. I have a hard time understanding... harold baska... ill play the dad card too

18. There's this girl I know that.. thinks she can sing... weve been punking her for the past 15 or so years... its your typical william hung situation...she bangs, she bangs!!! She also looks like him if you squint your eyes and turn your head slightly to the left... got ya bitch!

19. You know I like you when...i make fun of you. If i dont like you, then i dont talk to you.

20. If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be... facebook. I realize its not a person, but if i change my status, everyone will know i won an award in about 2.76 seconds

21. Take my advice... wear sunscreen.... hahahahaha remember that song!?!

22. Something that I really want to buy is... a new coach purse!

23. If you visited the place I was born... youd be like "what it is Northside Hospital!?!"

24. I plan to visit... Jennifer Weiksner the first weekend in april to go see the masters... yeaaaaaaaaaah boy!

25. If you spend the night at my house... youll see how annoying kristens dog is.

26. I'd stop my wedding if... nessa would ditch that two-shirt-owning, la-ho-sa-er, but-i-want-to-be-a-poilet, goofy ass boyfriend of hers!

27. The world could do without... my ex boyfriends.... muahahaha. Well actually i get a long with most of them... The ones i dont however.... go ahead world, peace them out!

28. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than... than eat shit... thats probably the only thing worse.

29. Most recent thing I've bought myself is... a bag of peanuts from the vending machine

30. Most recent thing someone else bought me is... lunch

31. My favorite blonde is... liz baska.... duh!?

32. My favorite brunette is... sweet baby JAMES!

33. My favorite black hair is... neesa.narie. im assuming you call your hair black

34. My middle name is... E to the LIZ to the ABETH

35. In the morning I... 'm like fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck. I dont want to get up yet! Snooooooooooooooooze

36. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are... pigs... that way everyone that used "when pigs fly" cliche can EAT IT!

37. Once, at a bar... i took a tequila body shot off some chick on top of the bar... yeah, i dont drink tequila anymore

38. Last night I was... playing beer pong.

39. There's this boy I know... who uses the word "reckon".... whaaaaaaaaaaaaat?

40. I don't know... why the sky is blue OR why the world is round

41. A better name for me would be.... BALLIN!!!!!!!!!

42. Tomorrow I am... going to a wedding with people who are in the puerto rican mafia... no joke

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING?
ummmmm... no.

2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
almost a year-ish...

3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
jamie and katie brought me a ticket to memphis!!!! Now i just have to find a free weekend to use it

4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?
ummm... i am queen of effing up my cell phone... on time i dropped it off an apt balcony(drunk) ive been good lately though!

5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
monday... and i/nick kicked my asssssssss

6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
now its rent... and my guilty pleasures coach purses and designer jeans!

7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
cottage cheese with peaches... yum

8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
shoes... you can tell a lot by shoes.

9. ONE FAVORITE SONG?
right now its "this years love" by daivd grey

10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
smyrna/vinings... chadsworth!

11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTEND(ed):
NHS... norcross!

12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER:
verizon... can you hear me now???

13. FAVORITE MALL STORE
forever 21... im addicted to cheap trendy clothes!

14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD:
i was a nanny for 3 years every summer... but everyday job ive been at resurgens for a year and a half

15. DO YOU OWN PAIR OF DICE?
ummm... nope?

16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?:
im a joker... and slightly immature so sometimes

17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED:
ummmm eirca's? But im going to one this saturday... its going to be awesome!

18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY
Id call kate baska and through it in her face!

19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND:
ummmm i havent seen kate in a couple months... but she'll be home april 8th for the bday!

20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT:
Zaxbys or Chic-fil-a

21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD:
"but i love you"

23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?
Ru Sans or various mexican places.

24. CAN YOU COOK?
i try... i think i might be getting better!!!!

25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?:
Toyota RAV 4... aka the golf cart. Every once and awhile i get the tahoe though and thats real fun until it runs out of gas $$$$

26. BEST KISSER:
hmmmm... i think it would be sean... even though i hate his guts. Someone kiss me better now!

27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Monday... long story.

28. MOST DISLIKED FOOD?
sourkrawt... ugh, I might be 1/2 Russian but i hate that shit!

29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
my eyelashes and jokes... ive got jokes, i laugh at myself alllllll day.

30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
i cant trust people to save my life... im working on it though.

32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?:
doubles at Ted's... that blew.

33. FAVORITE MOVIE?
ummmmm... i still really like 10 things i hate about you... its been my fave forever!

34. CAN YOU SING?
i can sing... sing well??? Another story ;)

35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
Tim Brantley... or Blackberry Smoke

37. LAST MOVIE RENTED:
i rented a Reno 911 season.... sooooooooooo funny!

38.ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT:
cell phone!

39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT:
Hawaii

43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:
my macbook is the JAM!

44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?:
pshhh def DANE COOK... he is also the JAM!

45. DO YOU SMOKE?
bleh... no.

46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?
with

47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?:
belle use to cuddle with me but now im all by my lonesome and i hate it!

48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?:
ive never had a sucsessful one but katie and patrick are doing fine!

49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
3 times... speeding. Got out of one of them though!

50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
pankcakes, banana

51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?:
sometimes

52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
scrambled with cheese and a little runny

53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?:
no... i think that stuff is a bunch of bs

54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?:
michael oh

55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?:
nick pineda

56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?:
michael oh again! Yeah, he loves me

58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?:
ive got two regular pillows, my memory foam pillow (which is awesome) and my body pillow... i like pillows

59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?
navy scrubs, comfy grey undershirt (james, you know which one!) and my newbies

60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC
"i make plans to break plans... and lately ive been planning something big."

OR
"when you kiss me on that midnight street, sweep me off my feet, singing aint this life so sweet"

61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?:
grape... boring but delicious.

62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?:
hah... hell to the no

63. CAN YOU SWIM?
yup, i was on swim team!

64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?:
Ben and Jerry's... loves of my life!

65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?
um no... they confuse me

66. TELL A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF:
i can tie my hair in a knot with one hand.

68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?:
soooooooooooooooooooo many...

69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?:
summer... i loooooooooooooooooooooove summer

70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?
me, i fell out of my chair at work

71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING ?
6:15 am.... ew.

72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?:
my ugg boots... thats it, i hate the cold.

73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A Ticket?
on my way to statesboro with my dad in the car when i was hungover as hell... worst car trip of my life!

75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?:
oscar the fish... that damn thing lived for-ev-er.

76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?:
Pirates are the JAM! Ninja's are sooooooooooo overrated.

77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND??
Friday im going home to finish up cleaning my room in norcross. Sat im taking Belle to piedmont with some of the girls then i have a wedding that night... Sunday ill probably be recovering from the weddings open bar!

78. BIRTHDATE?
2-8-1984

79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE:
happy

85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?:
nope... work desk top

86. ARE YOU SMILING?
nope...

90. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
home and sleep!

92. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?:
hell to tha naw.

93. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?:
you could say that

94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?
boy: Kasey girl: Hazel

95. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?:
i have a white and paisley one, a black one, idunno... i have a bunch

96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?:
yes

97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?:
yup... St. Pete for spring break!

98. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?:
nope

99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER
i have a real life sister and then a bunch of sorority sisters

100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?:
im on the 19th floor at work!

101. ARE YOU HAPPY W/ LIFE?:
for the most part

102. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?
ummm yes... I work in the hospital. But ive put myself in there a couple times too.

103. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?
yup =)

104. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?
the rings i always wear

105. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY?
ill continue to work... and by work i mean check my facebook and play tetris.

Im feeling restless. I get like this every once and awhile... i wake up and feel like i need to change something, like today needs to be different than yesterday. Its weird. Nothing happened last night to spur it on... i just am. Usually i just go get my haircut or something but I dont think thats going to fix it this time. Plus, im kinda liking my hair longer right now... I dunno, we'll see...I need a change, i need something new. You would think moving out would be enough.
I like living with Kristen but to be honest its kind of lonely. Were never home at the same time. I seriously probably see her for about 30 mins out of the day. Im use to being in a house of constant turmoil and crazyness. Between my mom, 17 yr old brother, random check-ins from my dad, and two dogs there was always something going on. Ill usually go over to Mituls or Larissa's, they live pretty close to me now. I miss hanging out with my long time friends. Katie's in memphis, Jamies got stuff (we had dinner last night though!!!), Kristens doing community service out the ass for her dui, Alinas got a big girl job and jason, ericas married... ahhh, i miss my girls! But I have been hangin out with new people too. Whitney (zta) and Lauren M. (aopi) and i have gotten to be pretty close. Ive been hangin out with the boys more too. I could never replace my sisters though ;)
Works going to suck today. Its going to be slow as hell, there are hardly any appointments, then i have to go to school for an unscheduled SGA meeting... i think im going to stay for the part i need to then dip out. Thats real dedication for ya. I hate to say it, but im kinda over it. Im just ready to be done with school for now.
Alright, back to working-ish... im sure ill end writting again before the days over... dueces.

What would i do without you nessa... i need someone to remind me to write in my LJ!
So im back from spring break, it was a lot of fun... crazy times. We went down to jesse's plantation for two days. I was nervous about going to a "plantation" but holy cow, it was amazing. We went off roading (Rook got his jeep stuck), Laruen McNully and I shot skeet for the first time (And we hit our time!), we saw an elk (they are HUGE) and there was a hot tub... plus jesse's mom's cooking was the bomb... completely ruined my beach diet but was completely worth it! Then we went to St. Pete beach where drunken debauchery reached an all time high... duh!
So now im back in atl... wishing i was still at the beach. I loooooooooooooove the beach. I moved in with kristen kitchen to a sweet town home in smyrna/vinnings. I still have a lot to set up but jesse and i got my bed in there last night. I set up the headboard wrong though... it squeeks everytime i move... ill have to fix that tonight. Now that im an official rent payer im broke as a joke so ill def be chillin at home a lot! I figured it was time for a change... i wanted to be a big girl... this was a good start!
I was also asked to apply for an internship at the Lt. Gov's Office. I hate to count my chickens but im pretty sure im a shoe in. I worked on the campaign and have done favors for the guy filling the position... he would be a total ass hat not to give to me.
So yeah im happy, it feels good. Im most def stressed as hell with school work but happy with everything else none the less... yay!

So i work with Taylor who is currently DZ's prez and she walks up to me this morning and tells me to check out cnn... So im lookin at CNN and it has a segment about DZ. SWEET... NOT.
Apparently the DZ chapter from DePauw went underneath a membership review bc thier chapter wasnt doing so hot with recruitment... as in every other sorority @ the school has 300 sisters while DZ had 30... niiiiiiiiice.
So nationals swooped in to save the day and question girls about their commitment to rush and the sorority as a whole... they ended up kicking out 18 girls, or rather asked them to go alumn status... niiiiiiice.
Those 18 girls just happened to be the minority girls or the hippa-croco-moose lookin ones... also niiiiiiiice.
I guess when they decided to weed these girls out they failed to notice that one of them was the editor of the schools newspaper... score DZ. So she of course writes a letter to NY Times and BAM... Delta Zeta's hate fat minority chicks and are only interested in the blonde beautiful socially accepted type of girl.
Ummm wow... thats really going to hurt the organization. I mean this shit is all over CNN and The View... im sure Rosie is having a hay-day. I mean yeah... those girls are not what you picture when you think sorority girl... ill be honest. But anyone who has at least to rational brian cells knows DZ wouldnt kick them out for looks alone. Apparently the girls were showing up to rush events unkemp and really didnt give two shits about their chapter. They would come to rush events in ratty these are my fat day jeans and fuck make-up, who needs make-up... brushing your hair was so last season, dress. I mean i hate to say it... but its damn true. We know theres a certain element of shallowness to the rush process. Its the time you bust out the curling iron, new lipstick, and ridiculous greek paraphernalia and strut your shit so people will want to be you. Who wants to be associated who girls who look like hell got hit by a trailer park??
So i mean i guess i can see both sides... but when it comes down to it I think nationals had a point... from a PR move it was stupid of them but if I was shoving out thousands of dollars to a sorority who's total is short by 270 people (sidenote: 80% of the school is GREEK) I would look at weeding out the problem parts too. So yeah...from a PR standpoint... it sucks to be a DZ

SO how bad do i suck at updating my LJ... pretty bad. Maybe if i had something worth throwin out there??? Idunno, lately its just the same shtuff different day. Ugh... im lame.
I cant wait till spring break though... 1 week at the beach.... omg, yesssssssss. It may seem a little lame that im going to Tampa my Sr. spring break with a bunch of people whos mean age is 20 but it beats the shit out of staying in atlanta and working. Im kinda worried about drama going on down there... im rooming with an ex couple who is more up and down than a ride at six flags. Then there's some others im worried about too but whatev... its my last spring break... you can find me at the BEACH!
So im pretty sure the class i need to graduate isnt offered over them summer... fuck me. I cant believe im going to have to push it back again till dec... why does GA State hate me? Why must they insist i be in school for-damn-ever. I think ill try getting an internship on top of my one class ill need for the fall. That means my little sister is going to graduate before me... sweet.
Im kinda over my job at resurgens... i just dont like it anymore. My boss doesnt even know my effing name... im like seriously, ive worked here longer than you... you dont know my name??? I keep telling myself to stick with it... its a job.. it pays well... its close to school... and its flexible with school but sometimes its just a real pain in my ass. Like today when a doctor had a patient in tears bc he wouldnt see her bc of a $40 balance from another doctor. Shit is so gay... ive got this lady boo-hooing in my waiting room over $40... im like seriously? That doctor is such an effing prick too. Gaw.
Alright... im going to go see if theres something i can do while im at work today... so far ive checked in 6 patients in 4 hours... do the math... yeah, that boredem. Even if one cried.
Done.

So alina cooked us dinner last night... thai chicken... my stomach is still on fire! It must of been too spicy bc i feel like puking all over the place... seriously, theres acid in my mouth... bleh, so gross.

This weekend was alright, Friday I got drunk and fell in love with everyone at the bar... Saturday I was sober and hated everyone at the bar... Its funny how it works out like that.
I was really pissy Saturday, like lividly pissed... poor james had to calm me down all night... I was just mad over boy drama, I don't know what im doing with myself. I sit here and wish my love life would just be handed to me on a silver platter and when it does i throw it to the wayside... ive thrown a couple silver platters the past weeks and it makes me feel like a super bitch. At the same time I cant seem to change my heart so I get stuck in shitty awkward situations. Im just going to lock myself in my room for the next few weekends... its safer.

Speaking of locking up in my room... effing Belle chewed my brown boots! What a bitch! She's never chewed anything and out of nowhere goes ape shit on the boots I wear all the time... ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I cant be mad at her for more than 10mins though, shes so damn cute... She cuddles with me in the mornings... i mean honestly, who needs a legit relationship when youve got a dog

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH so i just got off the phone with my sister kate... she has a boyfriend... his name is joel but everyone calls him farley... thats because he looks like will farley, yes. There are actual pictures of this kid on college humor passed out and written all over and his facebook has a picture of an arrow pointing down his pants shaved into his hairy chest... good lord. I mean he's a good kid and all, really nice and funny but jeez louise... ill post pictures:

Ugh, so tired at work...
I hate fridays... I hate fridays because I always swear up and down that Ill be in bed by 130 thurs night but end up leaving the bar @ 230... and then i have the tired hangover allllllll day.
And today particulary sucks. Because my clinics are finished they have me answering phones next to the most annoying employee EVER! She never stops talking... and about stupid shit too. Im doing everything i can to block her out too...
Picture this... im sitting at my desk... aol radio is playing (ive got it set on the one hit wonders station, yes!) im wearing scrubs and the avaitor sunglasses i stole off mituls table last night (in hopes that by wearing sunglasses inside people will just leave me alone, not working)... ive been here since 745am and even on my adderall im still about to fall asleep... my head is pounding... and this chick next to me is trying to talk to me about lil kim... helllllllllllo? I dont give an ef about lil kim... i give an ef about you shutting the shit up! Shes like one of those kids who parents never payed them attention so they beg for it from strangers....agh, im 2.5 from choking her out... she just asked me if cyndi lauper sang the song "barbie girl" please... everyone knows its aqua!

My birthday is in two weeks... i think im going to go out with the college crowd on thursday but i want to go out with all my big boys and girls on friday... any good ideas?!?
I cant believe im turning 23... bleh. I remember being in highschool and having all these plans set to a timeline... so far, im about 5 years off...

damnit! my effing phone keeps ringing so im cutting this entry off... dueces!

After many requests, mostly by miss nessa narie... well all by miss nessa narie, i have decided to begin writting in livejournal again. However, this time i will be rockin the FREE account for fear of more facebook defamation of coolness

So my work... its not your typical job. For those who dont know i work at Crawford Long hospital... i see some crazy shit.
Today, on my way to lunch, I actually saw a woman who was so fat... she took up the entire hallway... you know how people joke "bitch was a big as the hallway...ha.ha.." seriously, homegirl was parked on one of those benches (made for many patients but just one in this case) at the end of the forier for the lower rise elevators...
When i saw her i immediatly choked on my own spit which caused patrick to give me the "i cant believe you just did that, do you not have a soul" look. But i dont care... this woman was huuuuuuuuuuuuuuge... im not sure how they even made it to the hospital... we dont have a helicopter pad... or a crane for that matter...
ok so you might think im a total bitch but honestly how sorry can you feel for a person who continues to pack on lbs AFTER their moo-moo no longer fits... news flash, the shit didnt shrink in the wash... you are just that big... put down the pizza... thanks


in other news... i hate skanks... i hate when i take up for people and say they are not skanks and then they turn around and do skanky things. I refuse to name this said skank bc starting drama on my first entry back is just rediculous. But you know who im talking about... skank.

Also... when it begins to warm up i am going on a man hunt for baton bob... i love that silly rather large tu-tu/wedding dress & majorette boots wearing gay (i can only assume) black man. He is a true American hero... Any blad headed man who can march up and down peachtree st in a shirt that i probably own from charlotte skank (i mean russe), a white toole tu-tu, red lipstick, and pomm-pommed majorette boots, while twirling a baton and blowing a whistle... and not get shot... is a hero. Plus Baton Bob is totally ripped... seriously look at the muscles... very nice.


ok must get back to work... happy nessa?